Taking a Deep Breath

[queenoftheskies]

And, hoping that many things will resolve themselves today.

It would be nice to be able to relax and concentrate completely on writing again.

I've been throwing out some words, but my word counts have been WAY off lately. My concentration has been way off, too.

Which, of course, is why I asked all you folks yesterday how angst in your lives affected your writing.

It seems like, since early February, my life has been one constant source of angst or one disaster after another.

I got to where I held everything inside because I felt there was nowhere to turn, and that just made everything get worse and worse. Don't get me wrong. I had a wonderful LJ friend who kept checking to make sure I was okay and offered to let me unload on her...but she has so much going on in her life right now that it just didn't seem right. So, I tried not to unload and maybe just let off a tiny bit of steam a little at a time. I hope she knows how much I appreciate her concern and her willingness to listen. I've told her...and always appreciate it LOTS.

And, the beginning of this week, I think I was FINALLY improving. I felt better, I was writing more...and then the sh*t hit the fan again. Sigh.

I think there's no room for a "live and let live" person in this world. Folks think that, if you're non-confrontational, you have to roll over and go belly-up instead of having opinions and trying to do what's right. Everyone else is always right, you know?

I run into this at work, I run into this outside of work. Sometimes, I don't understand why folks just can't get along. I don't want to be a hermit. I want to be social. I like people...but, I guess that's part of my downfall. I'm always willing to give people the benefit of the doubt, I'm always willing to reach out and help when I can, so they're constantly using me over and over and hurting me...and I just keep getting up and dusting myself off and letting them do it again.

In all aspects of my life.

I guess I'm just stupid.

Comments

[frigg.livejournal.com]

You're not stupid, you're just a good person.

Giving people the benefit of the doubt is not a bad thing at all, but you probably need to learn when to say stop and be firm. It's not nice, but sometimes, digging in your heels and taking a firm, controlled, direct confrontation approach is the only way to keep yourself from being steamrolled.

[aeriedraconia.livejournal.com]

You can't change other people and waiting for them to see your point of view with out stating it out loud will just make you crazy. You can, however adjust your behavior.

A gentle putting of the foot down on occasion and belief in your convictions will probably be quite liberating and make you feel like you have some control over things.

You are allowed to put you foot down and stand firmly on things. It's ok to do that. It wont turn you into a confrontational beast or make you not a nice person and it might help keep you from becoming a victim.

[wrathchylde.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[i-amsherlocked.livejournal.com]

You're not stupid at all! You are a wonderful, giving, kind person and people take advantage of that too much in this world! The people who would take advantage and bruise your spirit are the stupid ones, because if they would just take care and appreciate you, you would be able to go the extra mile with out it being a burden.

It's not your fault. It would be good to put your foot down in a gentle way now that you're more able to articulate the problem.That way you can hopefully put a stop to their abusiveness.

::hugs:: sorry if this seems growly. I hate knowing you're so miserable when I can't do anything to fix it for you!

[madwriter.livejournal.com]

Various friends my age and I have all surprised would-be advantage-takers this way: They assume because we're generally live and let live then we're easy to walk all over, but our credo stops when we see the shadow of boots looming over us. We tend not to get mad or aggressive often, but when we do it can be like breaking the chain holding the angry bulldog to his doghouse.

[navicat.livejournal.com]

You're not stupid! Don't even think that!!

*HUGS*

[mrsroberts.livejournal.com]

When it comes right down to it, you have to be true to yourself and to who you are. That's not being stupid. There is nothing wrong with putting your foot down and standing firm in your convictions.