Okay, Lady, Step Away From the Novel

[queenoftheskies]

Because, if you don't, you're either going to delete it, or murder yourself.

So...I stopped both crimes before they had the chance to happen.

Geez, I don't know what's been wrong with me lately. A combination of things, I think. Too many things. Too much stress. Too much not feeling well.

Yesterday, it all kind of exploded, in spite of the fact that I started out the morning trying to fight the stress and everything else involved.

By the end of the day, I was a wreck.

I hated everything I had EVER written, no matter whether it was good or bad, no matter how much I loved the story and adored the characters. I hated the fact that I had no talent. I hated everything. And was miserable.

After lots of dreams and some deep sleep last night (not enough hours, but pretty good quality), I can see the world in a new light.

That doesn't mean I won't get stressed and tired and crabby again, of course. But, I'm going to work on feeling better. The stuff I hated last night, I love again...for the most part. :) I don't hate any of it and can fix what's broken. I'm not afraid of hard work.

And, the cup of vanilla cream Dannon Light & Fit Carb & Sugar Control (that's a mouth full) yogurt I'm eating kind of makes things better.

So, I'm switching back from the editing I've been doing on "Wildfire" to some actual writing today.

I'm way behind on my olympic_writers goal and my monthly word count goal, and that makes me sad. The competitive part of my brain is telling me how many words and how much time it would take to actually MAKE these goals. I'm hopeless. Hopeless, I tell you. Maybe pathetic, too.

So...I'm taking bets. Will I? Or won't I?

I honestly don't know.

Part of me says relax, play video games, take the day off. Or, at least part of the day. Write a reasonable amount and just admit to myself that I'm not super writer and can't always make the huge goals.

The other part says GO, GO, GO! If you slack off this time, it'll be easier to slack off in the future.

Maybe. Maybe not.

I don't know.

Comments

[sanguinepen.livejournal.com]

I'm not making my olympic goal either. I'd have to write 8K words by tomorrow, and that's just not going to happen.

[queenoftheskies.livejournal.com]

I need to write 30,000 words. I could actually do it, if I put my mind to it, but I don't think it's going to happen.

[dragovianknight.livejournal.com]

If you slack off this time, it'll be easier to slack off in the future.

ZOMG and then you might be all sane and non-obsessive and shit!

[elialshadowpine.livejournal.com]

Sugar, your WriOly goal is insane.

I think you've done a great job to get as far as you have.

I'd get what you can done, and take the rest of the day off. Last thing you want is to push yourself too hard and burn out. (Trust me. I've been there. *sighs*)

[cammykitty.livejournal.com]

You're good at taking care of yourself. Sleep does wonders. & you work hard, so if you want to play computer games, go for it. If writing feels good, go for it. Me, more sleep sounds lovely.

[java-fiend.livejournal.com]

Well I'm glad that you came to your senses. And I am glad that you're doing better. You do have talent, you have more talent in your little finger than most people have in their bodies, lady. Believe in yourself because a lot of us do.