A Little Progress...

[queenoftheskies]

In spite of...

A crappy day.

A crabby mood.

A sore throat (that I think came from the bug spray at work).

A seriously hurting back (that has gotten steadily worse all day).

And...

I HATE WHAT I'M WRITING!!!!!!

Which probably has something to do with all those little gems mentioned above and maybe the fact that I haven't really completed an entire novel like this before and I feel inept.

Pawns of Destiny

1,010 words today

10,354 / 60,000 (17.3%)

Monthly Word Count Goal Progress:

21,880 / 62,300 (35.1%)

2006 Word Count Goal Progress:

115,922 / 1,000,000 (11.6%)

Comments

[i-amsherlocked.livejournal.com]

::more big hugs!:: I'm sorry you had a crappy day. I hope that the sore throat goes away. (sounds like a need for some hot tea?)
::sends some virtual chocolate and another hug::

[queenoftheskies.livejournal.com]

Thank you. :)

I love hot tea, but must sleep now. Maybe in the morning.

Hugs help LOTS. And...mmm...chocolate...always helps, too.

[i-amsherlocked.livejournal.com]

Did you ever take the time to vent all the way?

[queenoftheskies.livejournal.com]

No, I didn't. :(

[i-amsherlocked.livejournal.com]

good night, sleep well!

[merebrillante.livejournal.com]

How are you doing this one differently from the others?

[queenoftheskies.livejournal.com]

This one is different because it started out as a romantica. However, it now fits into no market at all, which shouldn't bother me while I'm writing it, I realize, but it does.

There's too much sex involved, I think, for a regular market. There's too much plot for erotica. And, it no longer fits romantica because it doesn't follow the standard of focusing on one couple.

The plot is fantasy...dark fantasy. Who ever heard of a dark fantasy romantica? Sheesh! I can't do anything right.

There are two main characters...one more main than the other, but the story splits to follow them both. They end up together at the end, but in a threesome with a man.

The original story idea just mutated into this...and, yes, I plotted it this way. That's how the story turned out.

I just didn't realize I was going to be upset with it once I started writing it. And, I hate giving up. I'm very stubborn that way and stay the course even when it makes me unhappy. The price of discipline, I guess.

However, considering that I've planned to finish it by the 26th, maybe I can suffer through just for the writing experience. (Grumble, grumble, grumble.)

I like to hope that everything I write improves my writing abilities at least a little. Doesn't that make sense?

[i-amsherlocked.livejournal.com]

This story sounds like my favorite type of story to read. (romantica bordering on erotica) Maybe you're just uncomfortable with your character's choices because they push you past your own comfort levels when you write them. (stuff you just plain wouldn't do!)
(I'm right there too with a creepy bad guy in my current WIP)

[queenoftheskies.livejournal.com]

You know, it's not that it bothers me to write what I'm writing. It just seemed useless to take myself away from all the millions of other novels I have to write when this one might not even be marketable.

However, if nothing else, it'll be a good exercise, I guess. There's always something to learn.

[queenoftheskies.livejournal.com]

Well, good. I'm glad to hear that. :)

Today, I'm not so grumpy with it, so maybe I'll make more progress.

[queenoftheskies.livejournal.com]

I'm so stubborn that I really hate to give up on something unless I really know it won't work, I don't know what's going to happen next and just can't figure it out, or I just can't write it.

I can write this one. I know I can make a complete story out of it, so it'll work. It's already plotted. I know what happens every step of the way. In fact, maybe better than some of my longer novels cause I don't have as many tiny details to wade through.

I just seem to be very impatient right now. And, I have to keep reminding myself that it doesn't matter if it's marketable. It's still a good experience to write it.

That's where the patience comes in, I guess. Realizing that some projects are learning experiences and that, when the time's right, there will be other things.