I Think Maybe the Train Derailed

[queenoftheskies]

I know I've been posting a lot today, but I'm a much more social creature when I have a day where I'm not fretting over something. Those days haven't been extremely common over the past few months, but they do happen.

Last week, the light at the end of my tunnel vanished and I thought I was going to get blind-sided by the train.

However, I have weathered the having no insurance. I weathered the weekend with no paycheck. I have a newly issued paycheck and have paid my storage and car payment and can pay rent this week. So, even though things will be tight until the next paycheck, I think I'm going to make it to the next paycheck and that's a very good thing.

Worked out a few kinks here at work in that I called the person I report to officially, who is not at this facility, and just told her I needed a few people to back off until we could get things up and running the way they should be.

While the past few days have still been rushed and the workload is still heavy, I am no longer being harrassed constantly by insensitive neandrathals, which makes life ever-so-much easier. :)

There are, of course, issues. There are with any job changes. There are with any huge life-changing events. But, these issues can be worked out.

Sure, I'll probably have some more difficult days, but I'm hoping that once I hit the paycheck next week (we get paid every other week) that at least the financial stress will ease a little bit. I'm not asking for things to be perfect. I just don't want to worry about having food and shelter and clothes for the kids every single moment of every single day.

I don't think that's too much to ask for from life. Just a little breathing room; just a little time not to worry.

So, I think I might actually be out of the tunnel for now, not searching for the light at the end of it or waiting for a train.

I'm looking forward to the end of the year, to writing projects I want to finish, to making plans for the new year.

And, I'm seriously looking forward to starting a new year fresh and making serious progress. Taking some big leaps. Continuing to learn.

Now begins the recharging process, I guess, if there are no more major disasters. This past weekend helped. It was filled with positive events and good energy.

Now, I have to buckle down and finish this latest novel. :)

Thanks to my friends for offering so much support. Without it, life would have been a lot more difficult.

Comments

[nycshelly.livejournal.com]

Breathing room is great. Glad you might finally see some of it. :)

[dragonmyst.livejournal.com]

{{{huggles}}}

I can empathise. Glad things are working out.

[java-fiend.livejournal.com]

I'm glad that you're doing okay. Very glad. You're a very strong, very tough lady and I'm just sorry that it seems you have to continually prove it. I am really hoping that the new year brings some much needed positive energy to your life. And just know that you ALWAYS have the support of those of us who care for you.

You must be tired of hearing it by now, but keep on hanging in there. Things *will* get better.