It Rained and Rained and Rained Today

[queenoftheskies]

And, while that might not be news for most parts of the country, we don't usually get this much rain in southern California. It started Saturday night and we even had THUNDER and LIGHTNING, which I loved very much! After growing up and living 25 years in Tennessee, I often miss it (and fall) out here, even though I've lived here quite a while.

At any rate, it's rained off and on since then. The rain helped my sleeping troubles the past few nights, but it doesn't look like we'll get any tonight. It's supposed to rain again tomorrow, though. I hope it does. It's great! Makes it really seem like fall.

Got a lot of errands taken care of today...IMPORTANT ones...even though I had to escape from work for three hours to do it.

Got a copy of my oldest son's birth certificate, which had been lost when my purse was stolen. Got him registered to vote. Got myself re-registered since I'd moved since the last time I'd voted. Got all his paperwork turned in for his Aca Deca coaching job at the high school. All in all, good on the home front.

I'm not going to talk about work. That would depress me. Going to focus on the positive.

However, even if I don't talk about the work stuff, it still affects me and my writing. I guess other things affect it too. I was reading posts on one writing list I belong to today and with everyone so sure they're right in their opinions on writing, they make me feel so stupid and worthless. One person even made a comment about what was the point of writing every day if it wasn't worth reading when you wrote it.

That made me feel really badly because I've really been struggling with feelings of inferiority for my writing. I have the determination and I have the willpower. Why can't I have even a little talent to go along with it all? Sigh...

I honestly didn't think I'd write tonight. I was too down on my writing. I figured I could give myself ONE day off. Just one. But, then, I reasoned that if I gave myself one day off, it would be easier and easier to give myself more days off.

So, I wrote. Wish I could say it was good. But, I wrote.

I think I'm going to be a little more lenient with myself and give myself until the end of the month to finish (still writing at least 1000 words per day), so I don't feel so stressed.

Then, while I'm working on the next for NaNoWiMo, I'll try to get this one edited during November and then into December. And, maybe, by that point, I can actually submit to an editor recommended by a fellow writer and see if he thinks there's any hope for it. I want to learn. I really want to learn. So, if he could point me in the right direction, maybe there would be hope.

Beginning of the End 1,111 words for the day

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[dragovianknight.livejournal.com]

Congratulations!

Me, I rationalized, but then I always was a poor role model. Don't be like me. :)