Time to Get Over it and Move On

[queenoftheskies]

Today was a bad day. Time to admit it. Time to move on.

Doctor said NO to my refills. So, once I'm out of meds, no more until I can afford a new doctor (I'll be damned if I ever go back to her.) or get insurance...in which case, I'm STILL not ever going back to her. She has always resorted to scare tactics, even though I'm a good diabetic and eat right, take my meds, and try really hard to deal with the stress that raises my blood pressure. She says it's just what she does because so many people don't follow the rules. I hate going to her office. I hate the way she makes me feel. I hate the fact that she acts like I'm some sort of cripple or something and should just give up and die.

Being diabetic and hypertensive is NO reason to just roll over and die. Meds make me queasy and I'm exhausted most of the time from work and stress, but I still do more than half the people I know. And, right now, I'm really close to hating her. And, I never hate anybody...though I've come close to hating my ex-boss, too because of all the bad things he's done to people. I won't let her do that to me. I'm going to forget her and move on.

The agency that's paying my paychecks through Tuesday (they resorted to an agency so they wouldn't have to carry worker's comp and stuff on me) said I might not get my paycheck until Monday. That so sucks because I was supposed to have gotten it Fed Exed to me earlier in the week and that didn't happen. So...broke until it comes.

And, now...sheesh...now there are ELEVEN friggin parties interested in purchasing the company and bidding on it on Wednesday. Sigh...less chance of the people we want to get it to get it with so many people bidding.

They showed the plant to two different potential investors today. One, I hear, was from a large, publicly traded corporation. Maybe that's good, maybe it's not, but all I know is that when companies like that purchase a business, they replace all the financial people with their own. So...

Add that to other odds and ends that happened today and I came home depressed and tired and took a nap. But, now I've eaten and tomorrow's another day, so I just had to get that out and now I'm going to move on.

Very little writing so far tonight. Maybe I'll correct that. Maybe I won't.

I'm tired.

Comments

Sad to hear about your bad day.......

[dracschick.livejournal.com]

good luck with everything.

Maybe you'll feel better after some sleep.

do take care,
Chris

[nycshelly.livejournal.com]

You definitely need a new doctor. To not give you more meds because other people abuse them is wrongheaded. You shouldn't have gotten into this position in the first place. Good luck and take care of yourself.

[miwseshat.livejournal.com]

Boy - get rid of that doctor! She sounds like a witch. As a friend of mine once told me - "Remember, half the doctors out there graduated in the bottom half of their class." Is there some medical policy you can buy through the agency you are now working for? Also, if the big corp buys you, they probably won't kick you out right away - they will need someone to show their people where everything is. But, you should probably have a good resume before next Wednesday, if you don't all ready. It will be a good way to tell your new employers about your accomplishments - both at this company and before.

[stillnotbored.livejournal.com]

Find a walk-in clinic for now. They will at least let you see a doctor cheaply and get your meds refilled. You can't go off the medicine, that's for sure.

Good luck with all of it.

[cathellisen.livejournal.com]

Your doctor's attitude is very disturbing, go get a new one as soon as you are able to.

There's no way you should be made to feel lke you should just give up and die, just vecause you're a diabetic. There have been famous sportsmen, at the top of their field, who were diabetic, so your doctor obviously has some issues.

[navicat.livejournal.com]

Oh, that really sux. *Thinking of you!!*

But you still managed to have such a good attitude. You inspire me. I would have gone off at the doctor like you wouldn't believe, shouted at the agency and generally had a hissy fit. You make me want to be a better person (because you rock!)

[quiller77.livejournal.com]

Wow. Talk about a lack of bedside manner. Good luck with finding a different doctor -- and quickly.

[ammepyre.livejournal.com]

Bad day...*hugs*

Definitely new doctor when you get a chance. She sounds like quite the little you know what.

Hopefully whoever the new company is will see what a great job you've done and are doing and keep you around.

Job insecurity sucks. :-(

[beth-bernobich.livejournal.com]

::hugs::

What Everyone Else Said. Get a new doctor. Go to a walk-in, in the meantime. Something.

[frigg.livejournal.com]

In my book doctors are there to make people feel better, not worse. Hope you can get a new doctor soon.

[melinda-goodin.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[azimuth07.livejournal.com]

Depending on the meds, can you go to an internet pharmacy?

Like RX Store (http://www.rxstore.md/). Looks as if a licensed doc reviews your medical history and prescribes you the medication and then they fedex it to you.

Good luck.

[pjthompson]

Best to you...