Beginning Again...Writing
May. 24th, 2005 10:03 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
queenoftheskiesThat sounds so much better than STARTING OVER.
And, I guess, in a sense, it IS more of a beginning from where I left off than actually starting over.
I MUST set goals. Grr...I want them and yet I don't. I'm VERY angsty about them at this point.
However, I NEED them. Otherwise, I'm never going to really get back into the swing of things.
The problem with goals is that they make me admit that I want more out of writing than what I'm willing to admit right now. And, that seriously sucks.
Right now, my writing stays at home...except for the first couple of chapters of Beyond the Darkness, which are still up at Quill N Ink and OWW. The ones at Quill N Ink stale off this week, so then, they'll be gone. I'll probably take the OWW ones down too.
But, the goals make me think of the future. They make me realize that I MUST finish things and send them out into the world.
I MUST combat this fear that I SUCK which, of course, was fed by some of the off-the-wall comments I got from critiques.
Hmm...
I must either mature as a writer.
Or I must stop.
Thinking of myself as a working writer, that is. Striving to learn and advance. Working toward publication. I could never stop writing, no matter what.
GOALS.
For me, my direction is all in the goals.
And, I guess, in a sense, it IS more of a beginning from where I left off than actually starting over.
I MUST set goals. Grr...I want them and yet I don't. I'm VERY angsty about them at this point.
However, I NEED them. Otherwise, I'm never going to really get back into the swing of things.
The problem with goals is that they make me admit that I want more out of writing than what I'm willing to admit right now. And, that seriously sucks.
Right now, my writing stays at home...except for the first couple of chapters of Beyond the Darkness, which are still up at Quill N Ink and OWW. The ones at Quill N Ink stale off this week, so then, they'll be gone. I'll probably take the OWW ones down too.
But, the goals make me think of the future. They make me realize that I MUST finish things and send them out into the world.
I MUST combat this fear that I SUCK which, of course, was fed by some of the off-the-wall comments I got from critiques.
Hmm...
I must either mature as a writer.
Or I must stop.
Thinking of myself as a working writer, that is. Striving to learn and advance. Working toward publication. I could never stop writing, no matter what.
GOALS.
For me, my direction is all in the goals.
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Date: 2005-05-25 04:01 am (UTC)I think that the original intent of my post got lost in translation somewhere. Or perhaps I just didn't make myself clear. I wasn't saying that your goals are unrealistic. In fact, when I posted that, I hadn't actually seen that list of your works. I was actually referring back to conversations you and I have had about self-sabotage and setting unrealistic goals. I'm sorry if it sounded like I was saying you were being unrealistic... that's not what I meant. I think that your re-setting of goals is terrific... I was more concerned with you subconsciously tripping yourself up, that's all.
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Date: 2005-05-25 12:37 pm (UTC)I do underdstand about self-sabotaging. I had some great insight into that the other day and now, it's slipped out of my brain. I'm sure I'll remember it again to share it with you when I've had some sleep. :)
Sometimes, I don't know if it's actually the goals that are unrealistic. I think it's just that I don't have the self-confidence to actually take that big step forward, you know?
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Date: 2005-05-26 05:28 am (UTC)And I'm glad to hear that you're setting your goals and getting that confidence to take the plunge, J.
Rock on!!!