Of Projects and Queries...

[queenoftheskies]

I wish I had more time this week--not to mention more live brain cells--to post about some of the thoughts and feelings that have been manifesting in my writerly self.

I like to hope that they're signs of growth and achievement and the development of an ability to see things with a more objective eye. I've worked toward the goal of objectivity for a long time and I'm not going to fool myself into thinking that will continue forever. I know I'll have days when I'm not happy with my ideas or my writing and everything will look crappy and bleak.

But, I hope these objective days will grow more numerous and that I will continue to learn and progress.

Happiness tonight is the completion of two more query letters. They have to be out by Friday, so they're going out tomorrow.

The first is to a production company at Universal. The second at Sony. I queried the same ideas to both:

Overnight Sensation
Super Mom
Cereal Killer

They both were interested in the same types of fare, with the exception of the latter also being interested in thrillers.

I have a kick-ass thriller idea, but have not been able to settle on a title and haven't distilled the idea into the perfect logline and synopsis yet. So, it waits for another day and the time when it's ready to go out into the world as a full-fledged query.

The objectivity lesson that I've learned tonight is that you can't please all the people all the time. But, that there is that person--or persons--out there in the world that can appreciate the same types of ideas that I send out. I have to remember not to give up and I will find them.

Of course, I guess it doesn't hurt to remember that I was given that advice several times over by people in the entertainment industry, on one particular idea. That it would find its home. I just couldn't give up.

Sadly, at the time, I did give up.

But, now, I'm back. :)

I want that to carry over into novel-writing, too. My ideas are not comformist. I don't write the same type of fantasy everyone else writes. I don't write the same types of romances or science fiction that everyone else writes.

That's NOT a bad thing. It just means that I have to query people who AREN'T looking for the same old thing and that are willing to take a chance on something different.

I think I can be patient.

I just need to not be my own worst enemy.

And, I think that's something that's beginning to sink in. I just need to apply that in a way that forces me to grow in ways that I'm currently uncomfortable with, beyond mindsets that keep me from succeeding.

I think I'm learning what to stay away from, what sparks the negativity in me and reduces me to a sniffling pile of "I'm the worst writer in the world" crap.

I am NOT the worst writer in the world. Sometimes, I even write things that are okay.

I have the discipline and the dedication and the determination to keep going that extra mile after mile after mile. I might even out run the Energizer Bunny.