queenoftheskies

Today I was called upon to be Controller again. I thought I'd missed it. Maybe I had, but I didn't miss the going non-stop or running so much information through my brain that it made my computer look stupid. Or no time to breathe. Or demands and unreasonable schedules.

I won't say there weren't perks. I got taken out to lunch at a fancy place and had great food and we were gone for an hour and a half. I was treated with mondo respect and people were asking my opinion and hanging on my every word.

Quite a change from my old boss. These people had respect for the fact that I could provide them with the information they needed and that I'd even managed to keep things together, except for financial statements, with everything that had gone on with the old owner. And, for the first time, it dawned on me that the reason the computer system (trying to get it going after the crash two years ago) had never been a priority and that I had to do so much on Excel spreadsheets was that he didn't want financials.

But, I had everything on Excel. And back-up for everything.

And, OMG, I have so much to get ready for these people over the next few days, weeks, months. It's not the nice people running the company, but I really can't expound on it...especially on my LJ. Legal issues going on.

I'm so tired, though. I don't want to go back to exhausted and brain dead and down in the dumps all the time. I want to cope with this, but I came home and just crashed. Didn't want food. Only wanted to rest.

I'm not even sure I can write.

I don't like this and I don't want it back. I must find a way to battle it.